perfect

From a small 3.3kg little girl, to a big 4.8kg little pumpkin.

You are 2 months and 2 days old day, baby girl.

Motherhood is great honor and privillege. It is difficult, but rewarding.

I was on almost-a-month medical leave before delivering Alana,

and was on two months maternity leave after delivering her.

 

And now, i am back to work.

 

Perasaan - sux.

 

 

I just wanna stay at home and see you grow big.

To see your smile, and hear you laugh.

 

 

I am thankful, for the greatest family I have,

for a cute and healthy baby girl I own,

and for a loving husband I married.

Perfect.

 

 

 I love you both , termendously.

milk factory

Never thought that it is actually not easy to be a 'milk factory', to only one baby.
I have been breast pumping for a few days already. I pumped 15-30 mins per session.
I know it is not a good timing, but I just could not bear the pain, from the suction.

More tips and techniques need to be researched.

So lazy to compare, because I think it is just unfair.
I get 40ml (both sides) per session, which can only get an accumulative of one full 5oz per day. While others (a mom of an 11mths old baby) can do triple of what I do.

Read somewhere, "...being tense, stressed, angry or upset can block the milk from flowing so make sure you relax and enjoy your baby for feeds."

So Bapak, bear with mom, as much as mom bears the pain of breast milk pumping (and all sort of post delivery pains - backpain, the stitches, the pain at the v if i walk a lot).

Appreciate it a lot. 

Mom loves Bapak, nonetheless.

Mom loves Alana, more.

my girl

I safely delivered a healthy baby girl, weighing at 3.3kg,
a week ago, on 18 June 2013 (2:45pm). 

Have you seen her on my instagram (@lianamadzlan)? 
or on facebook (Liana Madzlan)? :)

I am a happy mom.

secret

Im glad we have reached this far, girl.
We made it to week 38 now!

I am no longer go to work, stay at home, waiting.
Can't believe I am reaching to the finish line already.
Eight months and three weeks - carrying a baby girl in my tummy.
And within the period, it made me 16kg heavier now.
And within the period also, I had to go through the mood swings.
I handled it well, I think. Or at least, tidak pernah menyusahkan sesiapa.

With all these, I deserve a reward. I believe in reward system.

Thank you to all my support system - the people around me.
For taking care of me, for being thoughtful and for the understanding.

On a different note,

I secretly feel disappointed for the thing that happened today.
I secretly feel sad for not having what I want as a reward.
I secretly feel upset for the fact that I had to make decision on my own over someone else's mistake.
I secretly feel that my no. 1 shoulder-to-cry-on should be the shoulder.
I just secretly feel disappointed.

I secretly feel I should put a smile on my face all the time now,
because I just secretly feel that the baby will pop out within 10 days.

and I secretly feel that I have to go through the delivery alone.

I am just worried.

Please pray everything will do just great, a smooth delivery.

Amin.

thirty two on thirty two

husband is thirty-two on my thirty-two weeks of pregnancy.

 

 

dear husband,

 

you are my courage you are my strength.

i love you more than you will probably know.

i cherish the thought that i will spend the rest of my life with you.

 

cant wait for our little one's arrival.

im sure she will be the luckiest girl on earth to have a cool dad,

because i've been lucky to have you!

 

happy birthday, love.

 

love; liana 

25 weeks and counting

Baby girl is 25 weeks old already! :)

21 weeks old little girl

 

IT'S A GIRL !!

went for a check up yesterday, baby is doing good and healthy.

Thank you Allah :)



my little bambino

hello readers
(I am not sure how many people are still reading my blog :) it has been ages, i know),

Husband is off to work, coming back tomorrow morning;
and I am on Medical Leave for 8 days.

So I decided to write something on my dusty blog..:)
Baju tak lipat lagi, will do that later before tido, I promise :) 
Why am I on Medical Leave?...
I had my monthly check up last week, and there was a spotting.
Doctor asked to take some medication and have a week rest.
Rest: No heavy work, and importantly avoid myself from the stress at work.

Oh I haven't officially announced  it on my blog; i am pregnant! :)
I am on week 18 already now. Here's a picture of my little bambino at week 17.



We are excited, super excited! (we: my husband and I. I hope he does)
I cant wait for the next check up, to know if it is a girl or boy.

By the way, I am enjoying my 8 days Medical Leave.
I am happy that I do not have to face my new immediate boss.
Can i just quit? I know I can, but let decide on my plan B first.
Plan A: Don't quit and tahan for a few years.
Plan B: Quit working, and finish my phd program (I should be working on my thesis now) while doing other side business.

or let just wait untill the baby pops out?

Whatever my decision will be, pray for me!
and importantly, I need support, especially from my dear husband.
(bukan financial support, but moral support)

Okay, that's all for now.

Have a wonderful 2013 everyone!

it's only 8 months, 80 years?

I think, it is too early for me to face this phase of life (read: marriage life).

It is true - It takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.

Tuhan, help us to remember when we first met and the strong love that grew between us.

Wedding stuffs for rent

These are a few stuffs of my wedding decorations,

and it's up for rent.

1. Jar with Lid

RM 3.oo (blue ribbon)/ RM 3.50 (with new ribbon, color of you choice)

2. Flower Jar

RM 1.2o (blue ribbon) / RM 1.60 (with new ribbon, color of you choice)/

RM 5.80 (with new ribbon and fresh flowers)

3. Place Card Frame

RM 2.5o/ RM 5.80 (with printed place card and patch lace)

4. Table Runner

RM 2.00 (only Light Blue)

5. Bird Cages

RM 160/set (2 big, 4 medium, 2 small)

Inbox me if interested: inamadz@gmail.com

Pelamin Struktur for Rent

Pelamin Modern Traditional

(Reception Seri Melayu)

Yes, the structure is ours.

Inbox me if u want to rent :)

inamadz@gmail.com

eh hello

marriage life is good, so far.

(cuma bila laki tinggal berhari2 pergi kerja tu kena tahan perasaan lah :P)

There is always, always, always something to be thankful for.

:)

My wedding Video

Sharing you My wedding Video

Dove Garden

Sharing you some photos

of my akad nikah and majlis resepsi

on 12/02/2012 the other day.

Alhamdulillah, all went smoothly

and i was a happy bride ! :)

xoxo

...

Hi :)

Luckyyyy

Uhuh, only a few days left..

Im going to be a wife to a man I've been together with

for 6 years and 5 months!

Oh How could I be so lucky

I must have done something right

..and I promise to love him for the rest of my life

It took us a lifetime to find each other

It was worth the wait cause I finally found the one..

I MISS YOU

He left me at his age of 77,

he left me when i was in Penang,

he left me with my picture in his wallet,

he left me with his last strength

to be strong wanted to be with me on my big day.

Alhamdulillah,

dia pergi dengan tenang dan senang,

tidak menyusahkan sesiapa.

Dia lah yang mengajar aku membaca Quran,

dan untuk dia lah aku membaca Quran.

Semoga arwah berdiri sebaris dan dikalangan org2 beriman,

dan turut bergembira menyaksikan majlis saya dari sana.

12 Feb 2012, hari ke-50 pemergian nya.

Here in my heart, You will always stay.

AL-FATIHAH

hope and faith

less than three months to the wedding

preparation is going well, glad i started early

wedding dress 1, going to the tailor in Ampang Park tmrw

walaupun im still unsure on which design to choose

yes, i am fickle like that

and will be going to Penang after that to meet the tailor for wedding dress 2

sambil2 join the Penang Bridge International Marathon

i am currently down with mild fever and cough

was busy with sister's wedding last weekend

lack of sleep and rest, that is why

but im alright, still can go to work and classes

i had a lot of thinking and pondering before sleep lately

about life, marriage and yada yada

i was ready and eagerly wanting to get married, at one time

not saying that i have changed my mind

but the feeling of...scared of being someone's wife

i understand the obligation and what nots

but it becomes scarier to think whether if he can make me happy all the time

without being neglected or ignored

and it becomes scarier-er to think if i can make my future husband a happy husband

agree with his retweet on twitter

RT: Falling in love is one of best feelings in the world,

but falling in love with the wrong person is what I don't wanna feel.

Can't say anything much, i guess

but to pray and have faith

minta dijauhkan benda buruk dan dikurniakan benda yg baik2 belaka

and i hope this feeling is a reminder to me, to be a good partner

and importantly, a good wife to him

memories are always be the things that give us the strength

I am doing the best for the wedding

because i believe that the six years of love deserves a celebration

and i trust, the love that i have now is the purest and the best i ever had

"Beginnings are usually scary and endings are usually sad,

but it's everything in between that makes it all worth living."

- Sandra Bullock in Hope Floats

the 11.11.11 couple

Introducing the newlyweds

Killah + Fairuz

Have a long and happy life together!

hundred days

Hundred days left to my wedding

Let's enjoy single life! :)