Tuesday, August 20, 2013


From a small 3.3kg little girl, to a big 4.8kg little pumpkin.
You are 2 months and 2 days old day, baby girl.
Motherhood is great honor and privillege. It is difficult, but rewarding.
I was on almost-a-month medical leave before delivering Alana,
and was on two months maternity leave after delivering her.
And now, i am back to work.
Perasaan - sux.
I just wanna stay at home and see you grow big.
To see your smile, and hear you laugh.
I am thankful, for the greatest family I have,
for a cute and healthy baby girl I own,
and for a loving husband I married.
 I love you both , termendously.

Tuesday, June 25, 2013

milk factory

Never thought that it is actually not easy to be a 'milk factory', to only one baby.
I have been breast pumping for a few days already. I pumped 15-30 mins per session.
I know it is not a good timing, but I just could not bear the pain, from the suction.

More tips and techniques need to be researched.

So lazy to compare, because I think it is just unfair.
I get 40ml (both sides) per session, which can only get an accumulative of one full 5oz per day. While others (a mom of an 11mths old baby) can do triple of what I do.

Read somewhere, "...being tense, stressed, angry or upset can block the milk from flowing so make sure you relax and enjoy your baby for feeds."

So Bapak, bear with mom, as much as mom bears the pain of breast milk pumping (and all sort of post delivery pains - backpain, the stitches, the pain at the v if i walk a lot).

Appreciate it a lot. 

Mom loves Bapak, nonetheless.

Mom loves Alana, more.

my girl

I safely delivered a healthy baby girl, weighing at 3.3kg,
a week ago, on 18 June 2013 (2:45pm). 

Have you seen her on my instagram (@lianamadzlan)? 
or on facebook (Liana Madzlan)? :)

I am a happy mom.

Tuesday, May 28, 2013


Im glad we have reached this far, girl.
We made it to week 38 now!

I am no longer go to work, stay at home, waiting.
Can't believe I am reaching to the finish line already.
Eight months and three weeks - carrying a baby girl in my tummy.
And within the period, it made me 16kg heavier now.
And within the period also, I had to go through the mood swings.
I handled it well, I think. Or at least, tidak pernah menyusahkan sesiapa.

With all these, I deserve a reward. I believe in reward system.

Thank you to all my support system - the people around me.
For taking care of me, for being thoughtful and for the understanding.

On a different note,

I secretly feel disappointed for the thing that happened today.
I secretly feel sad for not having what I want as a reward.
I secretly feel upset for the fact that I had to make decision on my own over someone else's mistake.
I secretly feel that my no. 1 shoulder-to-cry-on should be the shoulder.
I just secretly feel disappointed.

I secretly feel I should put a smile on my face all the time now,
because I just secretly feel that the baby will pop out within 10 days.

and I secretly feel that I have to go through the delivery alone.

I am just worried.

Please pray everything will do just great, a smooth delivery.


Thursday, April 18, 2013

thirty two on thirty two

husband is thirty-two on my thirty-two weeks of pregnancy.
dear husband,
you are my courage you are my strength.
i love you more than you will probably know.
i cherish the thought that i will spend the rest of my life with you.
cant wait for our little one's arrival.
im sure she will be the luckiest girl on earth to have a cool dad,
because i've been lucky to have you!
happy birthday, love.
love; liana 

Tuesday, February 26, 2013

25 weeks and counting

Baby girl is 25 weeks old already! :)

Wednesday, February 6, 2013

21 weeks old little girl

went for a check up yesterday, baby is doing good and healthy.
Thank you Allah :)

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

my little bambino

hello readers
(I am not sure how many people are still reading my blog :) it has been ages, i know),

Husband is off to work, coming back tomorrow morning;
and I am on Medical Leave for 8 days.

So I decided to write something on my dusty blog..:)
Baju tak lipat lagi, will do that later before tido, I promise :) 

Why am I on Medical Leave?...
I had my monthly check up last week, and there was a spotting.
Doctor asked to take some medication and have a week rest.
Rest: No heavy work, and importantly avoid myself from the stress at work.

Oh I haven't officially announced  it on my blog; i am pregnant! :)
I am on week 18 already now. Here's a picture of my little bambino at week 17.

We are excited, super excited! (we: my husband and I. I hope he does)
I cant wait for the next check up, to know if it is a girl or boy.

By the way, I am enjoying my 8 days Medical Leave.
I am happy that I do not have to face my new immediate boss.
Can i just quit? I know I can, but let decide on my plan B first.
Plan A: Don't quit and tahan for a few years.
Plan B: Quit working, and finish my phd program (I should be working on my thesis now) while doing other side business.

or let just wait untill the baby pops out?

Whatever my decision will be, pray for me!
and importantly, I need support, especially from my dear husband.
(bukan financial support, but moral support)

Okay, that's all for now.

Have a wonderful 2013 everyone!