Monday, April 17, 2017

My last post was in July 2014 😂
I am a mother of two now (one more coming in November 2017).
Life has been good, but not too good. My helper didn't return to KL after a week of holiday. Not that I am complaining or disappoint about, but I feel extra tired with the house chores. All the RM1,400 (the wage of a pinoy helper) worth of chores – I have to do it on my own (fine, sometimes with the help of the busband or MIL). Okay je dak? Biasa lah surirumah, itu lah kerja kau kan, Liana?
Not that im hating my life now but... I cry in the middle of the night for this temporary phase of life.
Now that I am 9wks pregnant, I easily feel tired and emotional. I pray 'Can please everyone in the world dont make me sad?' and  'Please let me alone' and 'Please be good to me'.
Bukan mengeluh. Bukan menyesal.
I never feel appreciated.
I deserve a reward (from myself), please say something nice if you see sthg new because I reward nice thing for myself.
I love you but I hate you.

Monday, July 7, 2014


Heloooo, it has been months, I'll need to update..:)
Baby girl has turned 1yo two weeks ago. Baby girl was so lucky to get the chance to follow her bapak to Istanbul and celebrated her birthday in Istanbul. We left Kuala Lumpur at 12.30pm Local Time on 18 June 2014, and reached Istanbul at 6.20am Local Time on 18 June 2014. The 10 hours flight to Istanbul Atatürk Airport was quite challenging to me, as the baby girl refused to sleep, so I had to bring her walk around the plane. The flight coming back to Kuala Lumpur even more challenging as the baby girl cried hysterically on the last one hour before landing. It was not easy.
Overall, we enjoyed the short holiday. Istanbul is nice, liking the weather. Baby girl enjoyed the food we had. Kebabs, ice creams, juices etc! I think she thought that she is now a big girl already, dah one year old kan. haha.
Sharing you some photos: 

Look at that happy face upon reaching Istanbul Atatürk Airport!
The girl and mommy, having lunch near the AyaSofya
The girl being the center of attraction pulak

With bapak, on the way to The Grand Bazaar
Family photo, Elminonu as the background.
Look at that baby bump, was on my 25 weeks of my second pregnancy :)
Oh, did I mention Tok Mom tagged us along as well?
Both baby girl and grandma has so much fun bonding together.
Cant you see? :)

Mommy loves you, to the moon and back.
Be a good girl as you have always been ok?
XOXO, Mommy

*Posting this entry for a record.

Tuesday, August 20, 2013


From a small 3.3kg little girl, to a big 4.8kg little pumpkin.
You are 2 months and 2 days old day, baby girl.
Motherhood is great honor and privillege. It is difficult, but rewarding.
I was on almost-a-month medical leave before delivering Alana,
and was on two months maternity leave after delivering her.
And now, i am back to work.
Perasaan - sux.
I just wanna stay at home and see you grow big.
To see your smile, and hear you laugh.
I am thankful, for the greatest family I have,
for a cute and healthy baby girl I own,
and for a loving husband I married.
 I love you both , termendously.

Tuesday, June 25, 2013

milk factory

Never thought that it is actually not easy to be a 'milk factory', to only one baby.
I have been breast pumping for a few days already. I pumped 15-30 mins per session.
I know it is not a good timing, but I just could not bear the pain, from the suction.

More tips and techniques need to be researched.

So lazy to compare, because I think it is just unfair.
I get 40ml (both sides) per session, which can only get an accumulative of one full 5oz per day. While others (a mom of an 11mths old baby) can do triple of what I do.

Read somewhere, "...being tense, stressed, angry or upset can block the milk from flowing so make sure you relax and enjoy your baby for feeds."

So Bapak, bear with mom, as much as mom bears the pain of breast milk pumping (and all sort of post delivery pains - backpain, the stitches, the pain at the v if i walk a lot).

Appreciate it a lot. 

Mom loves Bapak, nonetheless.

Mom loves Alana, more.

my girl

I safely delivered a healthy baby girl, weighing at 3.3kg,
a week ago, on 18 June 2013 (2:45pm). 

Have you seen her on my instagram (@lianamadzlan)? 
or on facebook (Liana Madzlan)? :)

I am a happy mom.

Tuesday, May 28, 2013


Im glad we have reached this far, girl.
We made it to week 38 now!

I am no longer go to work, stay at home, waiting.
Can't believe I am reaching to the finish line already.
Eight months and three weeks - carrying a baby girl in my tummy.
And within the period, it made me 16kg heavier now.
And within the period also, I had to go through the mood swings.
I handled it well, I think. Or at least, tidak pernah menyusahkan sesiapa.

With all these, I deserve a reward. I believe in reward system.

Thank you to all my support system - the people around me.
For taking care of me, for being thoughtful and for the understanding.

On a different note,

I secretly feel disappointed for the thing that happened today.
I secretly feel sad for not having what I want as a reward.
I secretly feel upset for the fact that I had to make decision on my own over someone else's mistake.
I secretly feel that my no. 1 shoulder-to-cry-on should be the shoulder.
I just secretly feel disappointed.

I secretly feel I should put a smile on my face all the time now,
because I just secretly feel that the baby will pop out within 10 days.

and I secretly feel that I have to go through the delivery alone.

I am just worried.

Please pray everything will do just great, a smooth delivery.


Thursday, April 18, 2013

thirty two on thirty two

husband is thirty-two on my thirty-two weeks of pregnancy.
dear husband,
you are my courage you are my strength.
i love you more than you will probably know.
i cherish the thought that i will spend the rest of my life with you.
cant wait for our little one's arrival.
im sure she will be the luckiest girl on earth to have a cool dad,
because i've been lucky to have you!
happy birthday, love.
love; liana 

Tuesday, February 26, 2013

25 weeks and counting

Baby girl is 25 weeks old already! :)

Wednesday, February 6, 2013

21 weeks old little girl

went for a check up yesterday, baby is doing good and healthy.
Thank you Allah :)

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

my little bambino

hello readers
(I am not sure how many people are still reading my blog :) it has been ages, i know),

Husband is off to work, coming back tomorrow morning;
and I am on Medical Leave for 8 days.

So I decided to write something on my dusty blog..:)
Baju tak lipat lagi, will do that later before tido, I promise :) 

Why am I on Medical Leave?...
I had my monthly check up last week, and there was a spotting.
Doctor asked to take some medication and have a week rest.
Rest: No heavy work, and importantly avoid myself from the stress at work.

Oh I haven't officially announced  it on my blog; i am pregnant! :)
I am on week 18 already now. Here's a picture of my little bambino at week 17.

We are excited, super excited! (we: my husband and I. I hope he does)
I cant wait for the next check up, to know if it is a girl or boy.

By the way, I am enjoying my 8 days Medical Leave.
I am happy that I do not have to face my new immediate boss.
Can i just quit? I know I can, but let decide on my plan B first.
Plan A: Don't quit and tahan for a few years.
Plan B: Quit working, and finish my phd program (I should be working on my thesis now) while doing other side business.

or let just wait untill the baby pops out?

Whatever my decision will be, pray for me!
and importantly, I need support, especially from my dear husband.
(bukan financial support, but moral support)

Okay, that's all for now.

Have a wonderful 2013 everyone!

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

it's only 8 months, 80 years?

I think, it is too early for me to face this phase of life (read: marriage life).

It is true - It takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.

Tuhan, help us to remember when we first met and the strong love that grew between us.

Friday, April 6, 2012

Wedding stuffs for rent

These are a few stuffs of my wedding decorations,
and it's up for rent.

1. Jar with Lid
RM 3.oo (blue ribbon)/ RM 3.50 (with new ribbon, color of you choice)
2. Flower Jar
RM 1.2o (blue ribbon) / RM 1.60 (with new ribbon, color of you choice)/
RM 5.80 (with new ribbon and fresh flowers)
3. Place Card Frame
RM 2.5o/ RM 5.80 (with printed place card and patch lace)
4. Table Runner
RM 2.00 (only Light Blue)
5. Bird Cages
RM 160/set (2 big, 4 medium, 2 small)

Inbox me if interested:

Pelamin Struktur for Rent

Pelamin Modern Traditional
(Reception Seri Melayu)

Yes, the structure is ours.
Inbox me if u want to rent :)

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

eh hello

marriage life is good, so far.
(cuma bila laki tinggal berhari2 pergi kerja tu kena tahan perasaan lah :P)

There is always, always, always something to be thankful for.

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Dove Garden

Sharing you some photos
of my akad nikah and majlis resepsi
on 12/02/2012 the other day.

Alhamdulillah, all went smoothly
and i was a happy bride ! :)



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